Well, thanks to... argh, person-with-long-username-too-hard-to-remember (ROFL.) XP I did my first Protected Post. Yay!! Rofl. So if you're reading this, then you were one of the lucky 1 out of 10... erm, well, I just picked 8, but fuck. :D To read this. YAY. Anyway. It's probably because I am going to write about something... or a situation or someone that you have no idea wtf I am talking about, Rofl. D: Kinda wanna keep it that way, ugh. Rofl.
Yeah, it's just this nagging feeling that I get. There is someone that I have my sights set so high for, I'm still waiting on him, but ugh, I'm afraid that he might've already forgotten how I feel and such. :| I've already approached him about how I feel, etc. After doing it over so many times (rofl) I quit and it's been aboot two weeks, now. And so far, no word about it between us at all. But we're so affectionate together and we have a lot in common; he's fun to be around, but sometimes I just get paranoid that I'm just too boring or something, ROFL. :P I'm too much of a talker and I suck at thinking up things to do.
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I really like the guy, is all. I just at least wish he'd tell me how he feels. D: Considering how we are when we're together - I dunno. Are we really just on the friends-with-benefits status? I'd really like this to grow into something more, and of course, that is exactly what I am doing. I want to have a history with this guy, Rofl. Like the rest of my other friends. But that's something that takes a lot of working on.
Damn, I want some Mountain Dew right now, Rofl.
That's just all I want to know. What he feels about me. If there will evar be an 'us' or some sort.
Maybe I'm just crazy.
It feels like it's lacking. It feels so one-sided or something. I've admitted more than he has, and well, ugh, I dunno. Usually when people don't tell anything, they're either a) waiting, b) don't want to admit how they 'really' feel, or 3) just don't want to tell. Hopefully it's option number a. D: And if it is, I don't know how long I can keep waiting, ROFL. Ugh, but for this guy, I am willing to wait a while at least. I can see us together; having a lot more fun and being with each other a lot - like somewhat a 'perfect' couple (even now, I think those don't even exist, Rofl.)
Is it bad to just have this feeling... like I just want to tell him I love him? It would sound too soon to say so, but I just have urges to tell him that. ._. GRAHR. It'll even feel awkward if I'm with another dood and... I dunno, if I flirt or "mess around" or something (tried to say it as politely as possible without making myself out to be a whore, Rofl) ...that it'll feel like I am cheating on him, or something. Arghs. I dunno. I feel this is a chance to start a new relationship, and I don't want to ruin it. :| I want to make myself out to be a potential girlfriend - to be a good one and also a loyal one. ARGH. D:< Feelings are so weird, Rofl. :|||| I'm just really, really afraid that I will wind up pushing him away. :|
And since he can't read this, I guess it would be okay to say it - as either a friend or a girl with something a little more than a crush: ;)
Yeah, it's just this nagging feeling that I get. There is someone that I have my sights set so high for, I'm still waiting on him, but ugh, I'm afraid that he might've already forgotten how I feel and such. :| I've already approached him about how I feel, etc. After doing it over so many times (rofl) I quit and it's been aboot two weeks, now. And so far, no word about it between us at all. But we're so affectionate together and we have a lot in common; he's fun to be around, but sometimes I just get paranoid that I'm just too boring or something, ROFL. :P I'm too much of a talker and I suck at thinking up things to do.
ailjegoadhr
I really like the guy, is all. I just at least wish he'd tell me how he feels. D: Considering how we are when we're together - I dunno. Are we really just on the friends-with-benefits status? I'd really like this to grow into something more, and of course, that is exactly what I am doing. I want to have a history with this guy, Rofl. Like the rest of my other friends. But that's something that takes a lot of working on.
Damn, I want some Mountain Dew right now, Rofl.
That's just all I want to know. What he feels about me. If there will evar be an 'us' or some sort.
Maybe I'm just crazy.
It feels like it's lacking. It feels so one-sided or something. I've admitted more than he has, and well, ugh, I dunno. Usually when people don't tell anything, they're either a) waiting, b) don't want to admit how they 'really' feel, or 3) just don't want to tell. Hopefully it's option number a. D: And if it is, I don't know how long I can keep waiting, ROFL. Ugh, but for this guy, I am willing to wait a while at least. I can see us together; having a lot more fun and being with each other a lot - like somewhat a 'perfect' couple (even now, I think those don't even exist, Rofl.)
Is it bad to just have this feeling... like I just want to tell him I love him? It would sound too soon to say so, but I just have urges to tell him that. ._. GRAHR. It'll even feel awkward if I'm with another dood and... I dunno, if I flirt or "mess around" or something (tried to say it as politely as possible without making myself out to be a whore, Rofl) ...that it'll feel like I am cheating on him, or something. Arghs. I dunno. I feel this is a chance to start a new relationship, and I don't want to ruin it. :| I want to make myself out to be a potential girlfriend - to be a good one and also a loyal one. ARGH. D:< Feelings are so weird, Rofl. :|||| I'm just really, really afraid that I will wind up pushing him away. :|
And since he can't read this, I guess it would be okay to say it - as either a friend or a girl with something a little more than a crush: ;)
I love you, Tory.
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