Rofl, Okay, no more long-ass posts for a while. DD: But can't blame me if I wind up doing more, ROfl. I just hope people read them. xPPP

I've been listening to a lot of Veruca Salt as of late. Some of her songs (when they're not uber "rock" and "hyper"-sounding and more "mellow") make me feel even mellow, myself. And get me thinkin' a lot. :\ I think I might try looking for her albulm(s) and buy them. XD; One song that really gets to me however is Aurora - really good song. I was supposed to go shower, clean, and eat now, but eh, you know me - uber procrastinator, Rofl. :|

Just gets me thinkin' a lot. And sometimes in a sad way. Well, usually when I do think, I do get sad. ROFL. I think that happens for the most of us, Lol. It's just weird. I feel so lonely yet not at the same time. I wish there was a medicine for that. :F But hopefully when I am with my friends this week, I won't totally feel that way. I really like being with people that I care for. Makes me feel all fuzzy inside.

Sigh.

I lie when I say I don't have a lot on my mind. I lie a lot when I am often asked "if I am doing okay." I haven't really felt all that depressed lately, but really, well, "happy." But then again, it's just this dreaded feeling I get most of the time. 

It feels nice tapping my fingernails against the desk, Lol.

There's so much that I want to get more out into the open. That I just want to blurt out and get out of my system. But normally things like that aren't that easy to announce. I fear the consequences. I know who reads my journal (another reason why I amy buy one from Barnse n' Nobles soon, Rofl.) Sometimes it feels like Linds is my verbal journal, Rofl. I tell her a lot of things, and she tells me what she has to say - brutal honesty or not.

I just want to open up without pushing anyone away.