What a crap day. It was just one of those days where you know you just have to expect the worst and just about know what is to come. Unfortuntaely, I was right with my assumptions...

As for my two cents goes, this is all I have to say. I'm over with it. I hate getting my hopes up when I shouldn't. Then I can't help but predict even more shit to come. It's almost to be expected and I'm waiting for that to happen. I think I'm just not going to bother with dating for a long time. Not even bother trying to look for the "one" or a decent boyfriend. I know I view myself as the heartbreaker. But at times I can get really hurt, too. Been a while since I felt this way...

I just know I'm going to feel like shit the next couple of days. And there's no one who can really help me through it. Somehow I just find it easy for someone to find someone who is better than I. I feel I just can't take that kind of pain again.

...At least now I know what to do when a situation such as that unfolds again.