You know what I love about Green Day's American Idiot albulm? Just how Holiday and Boulevard of Broken Dreams fade into each other. However, I wish it were the opposite and to have Boulevard as track three. Holiday is a song that brings me up when I'm down sometimes. It's a real good song and it's one my most favorite Green Day songs; in it contains their notoriously great beat, delicious lyrics, and just the drums and bass solo. It makes me want to do a Van Halen and swirl my hair around (or just any rock band in that time. :P) I wish it were a holiday for me everyday. Then maybe things wouldn't be shit for me as much as they have been as of late. :| "This is the dawning of the rest of our lives on Holiday." However, Boulevard of Broken Dreams brings me to reminisce and think of how poopy I've been feeling (in fact, I listen to it when I'm emo in general.) Sometimes I do feel like I'm alone. If not, have just very few people to give me that big ass hug I've been dying for and just another one of my melty-ass coookie dough ice creams from Marble Slab Mike and and I ate that passed weekend. I think that's my new favorite thing to do - just eat ice cream with someone that I hold close to me (don't know about Mike, though. :PPP He's just a fag! ROFL. JK JK JK JK JK.) Listening to this song just makes me think of the bullshittery I've been having to tolerate with as of late such as too much of the usual teenage drama shit and dealings with the ex-boyfriend and the current one. A lot of trust issues are floating about, as are these supposed "rumors" that seem to originate from the ex himself. Who, might I add, has a lot of problems. A friend of our's has been drug into it, and I'm pissed because another individual is being dragged into a situation that nobody else should even be involved with to begin with. At all. It amazes me how far people will go to stir up shit and make themselves feel worse than they already do. It's not like I can really do anything about it. Can't really talk to him about it since I already know what his problem is, WHY he's doing it, and WHAT'S bothering his lilly ass. There is nothing to discuss. However, I just want to tell him to stop his bullshit and quit driving everyone else into a situation that can only be delt between he and I with no one else included. Obviously he doesn't get the picture. On the other hand, he's balancing with trying to talk with some chick siince it was due to me that fucked up his last relationship. He thinks I'm out to get him and all the while, he's starting up shit about me and now I'm almost convinced that he's out to get me, even. Bah. MEN. :|