Man, I'm supposed to be going back to the bed. Not carrying on on the interweb. D: I hope I don't wind up turning back into my old net-whoring self, Rofl. It was actually kind of nice (and did me good) to miss the internet for several weeks. I'd say the only things I really miss about it was talking to my friends online. =|

Glad to have Xanga back, too. I can finally post shit and tell what's on my mind without writing it TO somebody and creating a bad/worse situation. D: Referenced to a past incident, by the way. =3=

Anyway.

All I can basically say is that I've been feeling ungodly lonely lately. Because when I think about it now, I have very few friends. Well, the ones that I feel who actually want to take the time to hang out and do shiz with me. Needless to say, I guess I'm just used to hanging out in large crowds - just really a group of friends that I could actually call "friends." It really sucks because I don't really have that anymore. For me that kind of thing doesn't really exist anymore. And when I think about it, the only ones that I really have to hang out with, are like, Linds, Jared (when he wants to take the time to), and Tory. Even sometimes I feel like I hella bore Tory myself. But I'm getting a bit over that. With Linds however, she seems to be the only one that I can actually put forth effort to be with. Not only is she my best friend, but she's practically the only person that I feel I can really just be with in general without having to worry about stupid shit. (I still heart you big, Tory. =O)

I suck at explaining things, Rofl.

I don't know if it's just me being picky with my friends or what, but I just miss having a lot of close friends. And I don't really have those anymore. Steven and Lindsey seem to remain, and well, Steven and I are still not on the best of terms. But I'm still working on that. aow;eirjrueihg;lditht Guh, I still really miss him. ._. However, I'm working on that sort of thing with Tory, so I'm hoping it'll work out for us, whether we head into a relationship or not. I somewhat have a feeling that we probably won't, though...

I just look at all the people that I talk to or read the blogs of. Everyone has a lot of friends that they can hang out with. The kind that they can just call up and say, "Let's effin' hang out!" and naturally they would. It seems that I can only do that with about one person at a time, now. And even sometimes that seems to fail me at times. I guess all I can say is that I'm just jealous of those that have so many friends and have people to see and things to do on their weekends. I'm more than appreciative of my current friends. I just miss the way things used to be for me...

And it's hella depressing. D:

PS. BTW, is there really an artist in My Chemical Romance? O_O